Memories, held in the body

This is Patricia (Carol) and it is Saturday the forth of February, and I'm in Hawaii - Habilitat the rehabilitation centre. We've just finished our two weeks of working with residents on a voluntary basis.

I just thought I would make another video to update you on what's happened in the last two weeks.  As you can hear I have a bit of a sore throat and it's been interesting noticing what goes on inside of me as I'm here, the work for the residents has been absolutely phenomenal.  I've gained more confidence.  We have worked with the addictions and so in that respect it's been absolutely amazing.

This sore throat relates to life outside of Hawaii.  So before I came, it's the way I hold whatever goes on inside of me.  So for me I have recognized that I have had difficulty speaking, saying things I needed to say.  Through the past right from childhood and I've held it together “held it together” as you do, and now the two weeks of working with clients residents is over, it's almost like, no it's not almost like - it is time to relax and rest.

I've got two days before I leave in the early hours of Monday morning to come home to England and my body has sort of held it together and then at the end I feel very tired whereas normally I would feel quite energized.

So all these memories have started popping up for me, and they're all connected with being able to speak my truth and my voice, so it's just interesting how that relates to how we hold things in our body, which was what I wanted to share with you.

So I'm going to use the next few days on the way home to connect with those memories and clear those memories and just watch the voice improve.

Yea, that's it,  I'm just going to post it as it is again, because that's how I feel I need to work, so you've got me as it is and i might put another one back on in a minute as well so thank you for watching.

Memories, interesting how that relates to how we hold things in our body.